I mentioned a while back that I was seeking CPs, as only two people had read THE ACCIDENTAL WARLOCK and that wasn't enough, especially with all the revisions. But I was hesitating like crazy in finding some more people to read the thing. I'm no stranger to having my stuff critiqued, but it's always been by people I know. The thought of handing the book to someone I didn't know and waiting to see what they thought turned my guts into knots. Yes, I know that in theory a whole bunch of people I don't know will read this someday, but that's a long way off, and that will be different, because it'll be a finished product.
Even though I knew I was being irrational, and even though I knew my fear made no sense, I was still scared. No matter how stupid I knew it was. And I knew there was no way I'd get TAW into publishable shape without getting more feedback from more people.
I found the answer I needed to get past this in the best possible place for such things: 80s movies.
Amazing how relevant that is, eh? I don't know why I remembered that scene last week, but I took it to heart, and headed out to CPseek this weekend. A few days later, I have two new critique partners. Not only am I going to make my book better, I'm helping others to make theirs better. I'm not sure which of those makes me smile more. It's bizarre how easy it was once I just went ahead and did it, and if that's not how to handle just about anything scary, I don't know what is.
Next entry: holy sheet!