Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Insecurity, not Anonymous
So, I decided to join the Insecure Writer's Support Group because. . . . Okay, seriously, do I need to list reasons? @_@ Fine, fine.
Because I go to bed every night and wake up every morning knowing that I could spend the rest of my life trying this writing thing and never getting anywhere, never finding an agent, never having any of my work read by more than a few people. Knowing that I could, utterly and completely, fail.
Because while I have two plots that are going great, it's the third one that's tying my guts in more knots than usual, and that's not even for something brand new - it's for the sequel to THE ACCIDENTAL WARLOCK, which I haven't even started querying yet. So I'm driving myself batty over something I might never need to write.
Because as a good and true friend of mine has pointed out, writing is in fact the hardest job in the world. Perhaps the most rewarding one, true. But still the hardest.
Because I get nervous about how people will react to characters I haven't even written yet.
Because I still beat myself up over stupid stuff I wrote years ago that no one ever read.
Because most, if not all, of the writers whose work I love had started their careers by my age. I know there's no age limit on this job, but I'm thirty-four and I always thought I'd be doing conventions and seeing movie deals by now.
Because I'm both optimistic and neurotic enough to imagine myself doing conventions and seeing movie deals. :P
Because, like most if not all of us, I'm in need of help. But therapy is expensive, and blogging is practically free.
And most of all, because I'm not going to let any of this stop me. So, hello. My name is Mason, and I am tremendously insecure about this whole writing thing.