It's time once again for another blog entry that I didn't know I was going to write until I sat down to write it. Brought to you by the letters W, T, and F, and the punctuation mark ?.
So, I have this story idea I'm trying to work on. This is nothing new; anyone who's read more than a few entries here knows I spend way too much time going on about one plot or another. But with most of the things I write about, I have a character or two to work with, some solid ideas about the plot, and a few definite locations.
This idea? I have none of those.
What I have is a whole cluster of vague ideas and concepts, things I think should happen in a story where I don't know what the actual story is yet. I have mental pictures of settings, locations that might or might not be part of the story, since I don't know how the main setting should be shaped but I know it's going to change, maybe a lot, over the course of the story. I have vague hints of main characters and minor characters, without names or faces or personalities, just the knowledge that there needs to be People Doing Stuff, and that Stuff has to happen for the story to happen.
If this sounds difficult to understand, it's because I know that the story itself is supposed to be surreal and dreamlike and should be more than a little scary if you look deeper. It's inspired by some fictions that have come to mean a lot to me, and might even be seen as a tribute as I try to put them all into one place and see if they'll blend.
It's the sort of thing I'd question my ability to write if I had any idea how it was supposed to go.
I know this is nothing new for we writers. I'm not the first one to feel this way about a would-be story and I damn sure won't be the last. It's just that plotting has been going really well for me recently; I have one plot ready for writing and another nearly so, with a third that's still in progress but going well. So it's frustrating to me to have something I really want to write that's taunting me with vague glimpses and strange visuals, like the moon quite literally turning into a rose, when I can't figure out for the life of me what the story really is.
While I usually take a shot before plotting or writing, I don't believe in writing drunk, else I'd be trying that for this story.
Anyway. I feel better after getting that off my chest. Here's hoping I figure this out sometime soon. A single named character would be nice, or an idea of the story's actual structure. But I'm about to head off to DragonCon for the long weekend, so I'll try to spend five days not thinking about this. Who knows? Maybe I'll get inspired....