Wednesday, March 5, 2014
IWSG: Fix What?
What followed was three days of thinking I sucked at everything and would never be successful. EVER.
I'd never received that kind of critique before, and it really brought me crashing down from the "I wrote this and it's awesome and it's getting published" high. It was very hard not to let it get under my skin. I don't think I have a fragile ego, but my characters are the closest I'll ever have to children of my own, so when someone tells me there's something wrong with them? To fix them?! To tell me that my story has issues, when telling stories is all I've ever wanted to do? Yeah, not easy to deal with.
But in time, I pulled myself out of my own personal pit of despair and looked through the editor's suggestions again. And they were really, really good. Those changes helped turn the story from a somewhat awkward love story to a tale about the main character realizing he was the only person who could help someone who desperately needed it, and finding that she was the one person who could truly accept him as well.
The changes made the story so much better. I haven't had anything published since, but I'm grateful that the first piece out there with my name on it is something I'm still proud of.
I think I'm better about receiving critique these days. I do my best to approach it from the mindset of making the story better, and I know that's the goal of the person who gave the critique as well. Yesterday, I received the first fully-noted critique for TAW, and I'll start plowing through that this weekend, when I finally have the time. (Yes, very busy nowadays, and it kinda sucks.) We'll see how that goes, but I've looked at enough of my CP's notes to have high hopes for the rest of it.
If my next blog entry is nothing but pained gibbering about how much I suck at this and how I'm forever doomed to failure, well, then I guess I'm not as good at handling critique as I thought.
Next entry: something other than pained gibbering. I hope.