Wednesday, September 6, 2017
IWSG: All the Things They Say
They tell me to write what I want to write. That's all I've ever done. I've never tried to follow a trend or anything like that. But it's never worked out.
They tell me that if it doesn't work out with one book, write another. Again, that's all I've ever done. After fifteen books, I'm still wondering when it's going to work, when someone will actually want my stuff.
They tell me to just write. Third in a row, that's all I've ever done. I never think about whether something will be publishable or what-have-you when I'm still in the creating part of the process. And that's never made a difference anyway.
They tell me I'm getting better. Maybe I am. But it doesn't matter how good something I write is if nobody ever reads it. Writing that no one reads might as well not exist.
They tell me to try different approaches. I do, and it makes no difference - query or contest, I maintain a perfect streak of absolutely nothing. Hell, I haven't even received a rejection letter in months. Just silence.
They tell me not to compare myself to others. I do my best not to. But it's hard, if not nigh-impossible, when there are so many amazing success stories out there, and I'm... here. It feels like everyone I talk about writing stuff with has at least one book out, if not more. (Do not bring up self-publishing in response to this; I've said my piece on that many times and I'm not having that conversation again.)
They tell me things to try to make me feel better. I appreciate it, but I don't even hear the encouragement anymore. It's always the same stuff, and words lose their meaning when you say them over and over again.
They tell me my efforts aren't futile. I look at an unending streak of rejections and silence and wonder how we're defining "futile" differently.
They tell me to keep trying, that I'll make it someday.
I've seen no reason to believe this.